ok well, i think something really good happened the last week of school. of course one ha to do with a boy but i wont get to personal with that story. and another one has to do with a girl i losty as friend a long time ago. Its true that I missed her. I could, in public, flick the problem off my shoulder but it hurt to know that I saw her everyday and could not say hi or give her a hug i was always so use to recieving and retrieving. I guess i thought she was one of my closest friends that I could lean on when times got bad. and this is when the hurtful part started to begin. I not actually going to say the problem because i wanted it buried so quickly. There were no faults just accusations and hurtful words to follow. It thoser things that u wish they only meant out of anger or your exuse to hit them up side theit head. I hoped she would take them back. I cried for a few days when not in public and yeah I lost the one thing that comforted me mosty, my best friend. I am a very close person as much as i am ADD. I like the feeling of having family and close friends. My mom says I have a big heart that will shatter easily and I never grasped that concept until my own parting from a friend. I could possibly even say I loved her, totally plaetonic....sickos. I couldnt stand not having her uin my life. so i made a bold move. In a way I tried to apologize in general and gave her a token of gratidtude. It could have killed me if she were to throw it away. when i thought allll hope was gone, and the class we shared had started, she turned around, and mouthed thankyou. I swear thats when I became very annoyingly happy that day. Ask Becky, I sung in majority of all my classes, but back to the point. I think I almost reconnected with a friend I though lost. this is were i say hey u, thankyou. Ok, ok, on to the guy. No names, but he is really great, funny and I actually met him last year but didnt really know him back then. In fact when i met him , i was the new kid who had a reputation for liking alot of guys. hey what can I say i was introduced to alot of possiblities and so many hormones. anyway, he asked me that one question about liking all those guys, if I like him to? But not for the romantic reason you think. It was just to laugh it up. His girlfriend at the then time was there. we became friends the year after. all in all, he is really cool, funny, laid back, all the thing that girl right now with no intention of getting married anytime soon wants. he collected, cool, and it does not hurt that he is pretty gorgeous. I guess time will tell. hey You know what this is not the badest idea to have on facebook. It is an outlet and it just reminded me of all things i am greatful for in life. My freedom and the human emotions that can affect your life. I love all of you guys. Feel free to write back on how corny or lame this was, but dont expect me to stop. I may have just found me thing.lol much love and respect. MUCH LOVE AND RESPECT